While I’m in the process of writing this, there is a
continuous playback of happy New Year by the Abba in my head. A big throwback
for a moving forward thought.
I am in my desk on the 2nd day of the year yet my
heart seems to be drifting somewhere in the Panay archipelago. Right then and
there I realized that I need to let this steam of emotions out. You see, I started
2020 with quite some uninteresting events. A series of parties, get together
and drinking sessions does not totally sum up happiness. At times, it will drag
you even further down. Now this may sound depressing, but I am not in no way disheartened
or sad. God has blessed me with enormous mercy that there is no room for
ungratefulness. This is what they normally call New Year’s blues. The feeling
of hope bundled with fear of the unknown.
What will happen to my future now?
In the framework of management, one of the essential factors
to plan out the future is looking into the planning tools such as SWOT analysis
and Project management. In real life scenarios, we tend to check the historical
data before having any conclusions at hand. So how about we try to review and
assess our 2019 performance.
Quarter 1:
Such a pain having to undergo Dinagyang festivities and the
entrance of the first quarter. The energy is high as we are still battling the
holiday hangovers. Everybody is hopeful. The future seems bright.
Quarter 2:
Feeling high in the sun. I have somewhat made a big decision
to shift the line of business I am currently in. I tried to shake my own status
quo. Reviewed my options, analyzed my situation and carefully laid out my
goals. I have taken the necessary actions to change the playing field. At some
point, my comfort zone was lost. This will be a great adventure.
Quarter 3:
Partly challenging, but very much exciting. New work
environment. New set of challenges. Everything seems new. My skills were put
into test. I doubted myself a couple of times. And at some point, I knew I have
to pull myself together. I am here now. Either I sink downward or step up and
this opportunity of learning to become better, efficient and effective. I knew I
was never born to sit in the corner and watch people. I felt like I was born to
stand out. And that I have to work hard to achieve.
Quarter 4:
Finally, three months to go before getting another clean
slate of experience. This is probably the sweetest months I have ever been with
experiencing the highlights of school, meeting new and wonderful friends.
Finally, opening myself to the world and seeing new perspective. I wanted more
of this quarter. I wonder what’s next.
2020 is scary. Can this year top the abundance of 2019? With
high spirits I’d like to welcome this year with a positive heart. I may be self-sufficient
(the word of the year for me. Lol) in most ways, the constant anxiety and distress
of wonder and awe will always be my never-ending battle. But hey, just as the Beatles
would phrase it, I’ll get by with the little help from our friends. Friends who
became family.
So to cap it all off, cheers to this another decade of
survival and adventure!
